I’ve been exploring an idea lately. The idea is that I’ve been hacked. I was designed for one thing but my programming has been changed.
Ever felt this way?
Here’s the thing, the reason I have this feeling. I’m certain, with no doubts, that I was created to love and to appreciate beauty, maybe even to create some of my own. I’ve no doubt that this is part of God’s plan for me. Sometimes it shines through. Sometimes everything flows it’s all good.
Sometimes … it’s all wrong. Instead of admiring what God has created, I look at it and want it for my own. I want to possess that beauty. It could be a flower, a sunrise … or a woman.
I want to express my love of all these things. Sometimes, a lot of times, though I mess this up and my idea of showing my love is to flatter and flirt and fantasize. I know I’m not alone. I know it’s not right.
I’m thankful for God’s grace. He forgives me. He has sent me his Spirit to find the messed up coding of in my brain and fix it. The Spirit is reprogramming me, getting rid of the lines of code corrupted by the Hacker of this world. The Holy Spirit is my firewall and anti-virus program, helping me avoid the Trojan Horses I’m constantly opening myself to.
Thank God he is faithful to finish the work he has begun in me. He promises us this in Philippians 1:6 and 1 Thessalonians 5:24. I will come to God and seek to be renewed, like in Romans 12:2. And certainly I will take into consideration I am a stranger in a strange land and must avoid pandering to my sinful desires, as they make war against my soul (1 Peter 2:11).
Does any of this resonate with you, dear reader?